Sunday, August 31, 2008

A 21st Century Nomad


Nomads are members of a people or tribe that has no permanent abode but moves about from place to place, usually seasonally and often following a traditional route or circuit according to the state of the pasturage or food supply. However, the nomads I know don’t move in search for greener pastures and abundant food supply. Instead, they move to find a place to pray, and glorify their God.


Since the day I arrived here in the small town of Bozeman in the United States, I became the newest member of these nomads—the small Muslim community in Bozeman. Being a new member, I caught the crowd’s curious eyes not only because I’m the shortest, but because I’m the lone Muslim from South-East Asia. You should see the amazement in their faces every time they hear me say, “Assalamu Alaikum. I’m Rashid. I’m from the Philippines.” Most of the Muslims here are from the Middle East—Saudi Arabia, Palestine, Syria, and Jordan. There are a few Pakistanis and Nepalese. While others are here for work, most of the Muslims around are students in the university.


Few weeks ago, I came across with Ahmed, an ESL student from Saudi Arabia. I missed my Friday prayer during my first week in the campus. So I asked him where the Friday prayer is usually conducted. He struggled with his English when he answered me, and tried to give me the directions. I had a hard time catching up. Nevertheless, I got the location, and thanked him for that.


Then, my second Friday came. My class ended at 11:50AM so I had a quick lunch, and rushed to my room to do my ablution. I was done after 40 minutes. I rushed to the Student Union Building, carefully following the details I got from Ahmed. When I finally reached the hall, I was surprised to find out that nobody was there. I thought I was late, and that I missed the boat. My heart felt heavy and I was frustrated. However, as I was about to leave, one man came and opened one of the doors in the basement. I knew he was a Muslim. Without second thoughts, I extended my arm forward for a handshake and greeted him Assalamu Alaikum. Surprised, he responded “Alaikumi Salaam”. He happened to be the organizer for that day’s Friday prayer. I was very glad to know that I wasn’t late. In fact, I was too early. I learned that Friday prayer here starts at 1:00PM and usually ends at 2:00PM. The time difference up until now drives me confusingly crazy. The sun is still up at 8:30PM, imagine that.


In my life, I never cried at the sound of azhan or the call to prayer. Here, every call to prayer is extra special. I can hardly keep my tears from falling every time I hear our bilal recites it. I don’t know. Is it because I miss home? Or because I don’t hear it often? I think the answer is “both”. Back in Marawi, I’m used to hearing the bang five times a day every day. Here, since I only pray during Fridays, I seldom hear it, and that makes it more appealing to me. Honestly, I hardly pray five times a day here. My schedule deprives me to do so. However, I will try my very best to do the prayer five times a day this Ramadan. It will be a very tough challenge. However, I am reminded by someone when he said, “The greater the difficulty, the more glory one takes in surmounting it.”


Back to that Friday prayer, I was apprehensive that the imam will conduct his sermon in Arabic since most of the people in attendance are Arabs. Apparently, he spoke Arabic and then translated it to English. With this, I was again reminded of Marawi. In Marawi, the imam recites some verses from the Qur’an or hadith, and then later translates them in Meranao. So, it isn’t that different after all. After the prayer, the imam announced that the next Friday prayer will be at the SOB Barn, quite a distance from where we were that time. This makes us nomads—we move from one place to another to pray, wherever we find a vacant space for ourselves. However, I feel at home whenever I’m with these nomads, and I love to be with this group of people all the time. How can someone love being a nomad? I guess my case is a very rare exception. Then, after the Friday SOB Barn prayer, we prayed at the Language Institute Building the next week. The director for American Cultural Exchange (ACE) is very kind to offer a space for us to do our Musalla everyday in his office too.


Fasting would be very challenging here. Aside from the very dry atmosphere, the cold weather for sure isn’t going to make things easy for me. The Philippines is a very humid country, and during ordinary days, thirst is often less of an issue. Here, you get extremely thirsty even if you’re just in your room doing nothing but reading. You have to carry a water bottle all day long—the dry weather necessitates that. More often than not, the cold weather will make you hungry most of the time. Most of all, my sponsor (the U.S. Department of State tapped World Learning to manage us here) arranged for my meals in the dining hall. On regular days, I only have to swipe my card to enter and eat in the dining hall. Everything is pre-paid. Therefore, this Ramadan, I will have sacked meals then (packed meals). I will have to get these sacked meals during dinner, and take another one for my meal before sunrise. This means that I have to refrigerate the food until dawn. Yes, I will be eating refrigerated food to sustain a day of fasting. My mother would have never allowed that. Unfortunately, like me, she doesn’t have a choice. All these paint a picture of a very challenging month for Muslims like me here.


Indeed, everything comes with a price. This wonderful experience and once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, unfortunately, is not an exception. However, it's a matter of how one deal with the challenges and adversities of life. As for me, I use them to motivate me in moving forward. Strong waves make better sailors, they say. And here I am, driving a small awang amidst a huge ocean. Will I make it? My optimism, courage and perseverance tell me I WILL!


I am a 21st century nomad, and I’m proud to be one—a nomad for a greater and fulfilling cause.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Calendar

What have I been doing for the past few weeks?

August 17
It was Saturday. Along with my fellow-students, I went to the Yellowstone National Park--the largest and oldest national park in the United States. We visited hot springs, interacted with very wild animals (grizzly bears, elk, buffaloes etc) and took pictures behind the very majestic waterfalls situated in between a very deep canyon. The trip was a stress reliever, and we were given the chance to step into the lands of the State of Wyoming too.

August 18-20
Stressful days! We hardly slept because we were busy finalizing our research papers, and creating the PowerPoint for the presentation! Michael Phelps was such a booster. We followed his quest for the 8 medals (an Olympic-record) and when he won them one by one, we were like winning too. We shouted in front of the television and cheered for him. After that, we went back to our respective research papers. Haha.


August 20
After sending our research papers online, our professor reviewed them and returned them to us. I was extremely happy and proud when he returned my papers to me. He wrote:

"Rashid, this is outstanding! I am very impressed with the writing, the research, and the organization. I wish I write this good when I was your age."


August 21
I presented my PowerPoint presentation before my classmates and professor. She invited some guests to listen to our presentations too. I knew I did good. However, I wasn't aware it was that good until my professor gave me my feedback form (which contains our grades and some comments/merits regarding our presentation). It was all 5s. Excellent! The words of my Advance Speaking Class professor will remain indelible to me. She said,

"You nailed it Rashid! See? You just have to slow down. I am just so fascinated. That was excellent!"

I may sound so 'mayabang'. However, just let me be. I'm just very overwhelmed. For a Juan de la Cruz attending a very big Uncle Sam university, those things mean a lot. I wasn't expecting it. I really didn't. I am just so thankful that my 'pagod and puyat' paid off. I really worked hard.

August 22
Thank God It's Friday! This day marked the end of my pre-university classes. We had a party at the Language Institute that served as our culmination program too. Today, we moved out from our residence halls and transferred to our respective halls for the entire Fall Semester. I moved to Langford Hall which is an all-male dormitory. I am sharing a room with someone who's identity is still completely unknown to me. He's coming on the 27th. I just wish he isn't a jerk. That's all. Haha.

While moving out, I came across with my Taiwanese friends in the lobby. I asked them if they are moving out too. One of them replied and said, "No. We're going back to Taiwan tomorrow." Uh-oh. I felt a sudden surge of weird emotion. I felt envious. They're finally going home, while I still have 9 months to spend here before I can finally be back. Sad.


August 23
I bought my laptop online thru my debit card. This was the first time I purchased something online. I have a lot of apprehensions. What if my order will not reach me? What if I get deceived? What if my money will be lost for nothing? Oh. Ang baguhan nga naman. I'm going to be fine. That's what my American friend told me, and I believed him. I expect to receive my new laptop three days from now. I am very excited.

Today, I also registered for the following classes:

Elementary Particle Physics (3 credits)
Computational Physics (1 credits)
Intro to Logic Circuits (4 credits including lab)
Intro to Computer Science (4 credits including lab)
Creative Writing (3 credits)
Physics of Photography (2 credits)
The maximum units a student can register here is 15. Thus, I have to eliminate one subject above. I'm really confused. As of now, I am convinced that Physics of Photography can possibly be taken out of the list. I badly want to take up that Creative Writing class.
So, what lies ahead?

Tomorrow, Chin, a co-scholar from Laos is celebrating her birthday. We are organizing a surprise party for her.

This will be all for now.

Monday, August 11, 2008

BITTERSWEET

Yes, I’m back. You probably are wondering what took me so long to write a new blog entry. Have I run out of stories to share? Definitely not. In fact, I have a bunch of stories to tell. Is my internet connection cut? Of course not. Computers with internet access are ubiquitous here, remember? Now, I know you’re starting to get pissed so I’ll now give you the answer before you start cursing me to death and closing the screen of this page.
The truth is, I was extremely busy for the past few days. Classes are very demanding. Can you imagine writing three essays and two critical analyses in a week? And did I mention about classroom presentations along with these writing assignments? Grabe. The reading assignments are driving me crazy too. One whole book in one week? How about that? Nah, I was at the point of giving up. Is this what it takes to be a Juan de la Cruz student in Uncle Sam’s school? And yes, please be reminded that I’m merely taking up PRE-University classes. What could the real university classes look like? I don’t want to imagine. Sigh. The pressure is on.

Anyway, so what am I going to write? Well, I have been here for three weeks already, and I am gradually adapting (that’s good news). You have read about funny recounts of my adventures here. However, my life here is not just about excitement, joy and adventure. Not a bed of roses at all. Whenever I'm outside with some friends--shopping, visiting the infamous Yellowstone National Park or merely going to school--I have no worries. I'm happy and seem to be living my life to the fullest. However, when I'm alone in my room, it's totally a different story. Sadness engulfs the room and drives me insanely lonely. It's hard. Believe me when I say it's BITTERSWEET. My pillow will probably do a good recounting of my tearful nights. A huge part of me still longs for Philippines-Marawi-MSU-CNSM-Coffee Rep-FD- ComCen. Oh, did I just say I miss home?


I miss my mamang and her piyaren a badak.

I miss my papang. He's silent, but very deep. I know he loves me so much.

I miss Bentong. I miss sending him to school. I miss helping him with his assignments. His ABCs and 123s.

I miss Ai-ai, our youngest. I miss the way she kisses me everytime I leave for school. I miss the way she says, "Kuya Atoy, pasalubong owm? Dunkin donuts." Mister Donuts actually. We're in Marawi. You know that.

I miss my brother Popong--his skateboard, his CPC assignments, and his "punky music".

I miss my sister Rasheda. That very diligent girl who insists she's going to follow my footstep. I always tell her she doesn't have to. She can make her own way and leave her own marks.

I miss my Ate. Her favorite song "Because of You" is always played in my dormitory. Urgh, it never helps me.

I miss my cousins Dadang, Julius and Manong Ken-Ken. They're a big part of me.

I miss Aye and her "kakikayan". I miss her sermon(s). I miss her brilliant ideas that continue to stun me. I miss her frankness, if there's such a word.

I miss my BAPAs--Amad, Ced and Ben. Paramdam naman kayo sa akin.

I miss my ACCESS Family. I miss eating lunch with them. Tickee and Mahid have been very close to me already. Goldy, Shiro, Ice, Nash, Farrell, Jam and Reyfi--you are always remembered.

I miss the whole bunch of Ranao Council Student Assembly.

I miss DEBATING. I miss the SSH Lobby where we practice. I miss the Debate Varsity.

I miss MSU-Scholars' Society.

I miss Adnan, Jen, Vida, Aira. Hahai. Ang dami nila.

For those who are not written and mentioned here, you are much more remembered.

Above all, I miss my DH and FSK. I love both of you.

Indeed, everything comes with a price. This wonderful experience and once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, unfortunately, is not an exception. However, it's a matter of how one deals with the challenges and pressure of life. As for me? I use them to motivate me in moving forward. Strong waves make better sailors, they say. And here I am, driving a small awang amidst a huge ocean. Will I make it? My optimism, courage and perseverance tell me I WILL!

I am going melodramatic again. Enough for now. I have a big classroom presentation tomorrow. Wish me luck.

More to come.